Weigh in/ Setting new goals...

So I weigh 190lbs (from 186lbs about 11 days ago). It is a little aggravating. I don't know if it is because I have been putting on lots of muscle or what with doing the shred... because look at my measurements...by the way I had to have done something wrong last week my thigh was totally NOT 40 it couldn't have been because it is 27 now and somehow my chest has grown as well... maybe I am not taking measurements right. who knows.

about...11 days ago...

Chest: 36

Waist: 35

Hip: 42

Thigh: 40

Arm: 13

now...

9/13/2010

Weight: 

190lbs

BMI: 

28.89- overweight

Measurements: 

Chest: 39

Waist: 35

Hip: 42

Thigh: 27

Arm: 12

So I am frustrated. Jillian Michael's is kicking my ass...my self esteem is like a roller coaster I feel good and then bad and then good and then bad...and I am slowly realizing how much I have screwed myself. When I started this journey I was all about moderation. I didn't want to go all in. Eating perfectly working out EVERY damn day...that was too much for me so I did the bare minimum and I screwed myself. I thought I could find balance in eating 'ok' part of the time and still treating myself sometimes and working out the bare bare minimum. But that really hasn't gotten me too far. I am mad at myself. I have had 9 months to do this and look at me! I weigh 190 which means to get to around 145 I still have 45lbs to go. It makes me want to cry. 

ahhhh....But I am not going to. Because luckily for me this was never really about the '#' on the scale at the end of things. No for me this has always been about liking what I see when I look in the mirror regardless of what the scale says.  I am still going to strive for that number as a way of getting results. Here are my new and improved goals. 

Goals from now until December 31st, 2010

I have 16 weeks to love what I see when I look in the mirror. 

I have figured to do that I need to lose about 45lbs. 

That means I get to lose about 3lbs a week or about 12lbs a month. 

I am not even sure if those kinds of numbers are possible. But I have to shoot for something. Now I need to make some goals to achieve those numbers! I am already doing the Jillian Michael's 30 day shred but now I need to step it up. I let myself indulge WAAAAY too much. I need to be vigilant. Extra vigilant as the holidays are upon us. I am going to keep to a strict 1300 calorie intake with one delicious pumpkin food each weekend. (I am only human!) So here is how I hope to achieve this...

1 hr or more of working out every day-yes even weekends. (30min in the morning...30min in the evening.)

1300 calories a day- 1 day a week I am allowed an extra special pumpkin treat (because well pumpkin flavored goodness is the 3rd love of my life.--it goes Billy-Ollie-Pumpkiny Goodness)

Drink at least 80oz of water a day. (I have heard that it is supposed to be half of your weight in oz so that is where that number came from)

I found these pics of fun, radiant, energetic moms...so ultimately this is my goal. I want to be able to do this ALL the time! ♥

 So I know this has been a long post. But I just wanted you to know that I am not going to let myself or you down. I want to prove to myself that I can say I am going to do something and then do it. I want to open up that stupid box of skinny jeans. I want to RUN a 5k or maybe a 10k...I want to take my boy on long bike rides and play in the park. I want to show him there is more to life than eating and watching television. So stay tuned in. Keep encouraging me like you have been it really does mean the world. Also your feedback is ALWAYS appreciated on what I can do better or more of. 

Much love...