Weigh In Day

 So I still weigh 184lbs.

Honestly I don't know what I expected! My eating habits are shit and I just can't seem to find the motivation to change them. Well I have the motivation...I mean I want to get skinny I think what I am really lacking are the balls if you will!

I read an article recently about Nutritarians and it all made sense. It felt so insanely right as I was reading it... I was dumbfounded. I seriously think that a plant based diet is right for me...however I come from a home where we eat junk food and junk food and more junk food. There are only two of us. And I know my husband isn't going to start eating well in fact he has told me that he is going to eat what he wants. And he does most of the cooking...so where does that leave me? Going around in circles like this is causing me to do nothing instead of something. Maybe I just need to bite the bullet and say sorry husband but I am going to eat good and well even if that means we eat/cook seperate meals.

Another thing that has been bothering me is that I have lost 32lbs damn it. I feel like I am the only one that recognizes this.  I don't want a lot of attention and saying this may sound vain but I think I expected poeple to watch me as I went through this journey and congratulate me and tell me I look good. I must not look good though becuase the people that see me every day have never said a thing.

I suppose the point of this post is that I am figuring out that I need to look to myself for commitment and motivation and I need to keep myself pumped up with my own encouragement. So CHEERS to me and all that I have accomplished so far. I have until December to shed these last few pounds and really turn my life around.

I think I expected that by about the half way point it would be easy. Well it's not easy but I am going to do it.