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I have been so... in the pits lately!


The sweaty nasty pits. Ugh. Blegh.


So I decided to take a good hard look at my life and why I was making myself so unhappy and then...FIX it! Yay!


If only it were really that easy!

I did however come up with a plan and I already feel ten thousand million times better. ( I heard a little boy on TV say 'a thousand million...' and I can't stop saying it! So cute!) I had a good talk with my wonderful husband and I am ready to take control of my life...of my attitude and my general mental condition. My hormones have really put me through it since having my son and I am sick of it. So here is the plan.


Well first let me explain this a little bit.


First I thought of what I really want in my life. What is really going to make me a happier more fulfilled person.

Balance.

I desperately need to balance everything in my life. Otherwise what will my weightloss success be worth if my life in general is a mess? I I like to use affirmations to help me reframe negative thoughts and energy so I made a HUGE affirmation for my life and posted parts of it all around my house to keep me focused on what is important. So most of what I want is spoken in affirmations. Which means in a nutshell Instead of just saying I really want balance in my life. I call out to the universe and I tell it. "Hey! I am balanced!" Because I know that my thoughts create my universe. So I have learned to think powerfully. From there I just thought about what I needed to work on to achieve that balance. And here it is.....

 I just thought of what I wanted and then I broke it down from there.... 

I AM ACHIEVING BALANCE AND PEACE IN ALL AREAS OF MY LIFE!

I am HEALTHY.

I am getting in shape.

I take loving care of my body.

I put effort in every day to feel cute and presentable.

I eat the things that give me energy and vitality and allow me to move forward with my goals.

I am ORGANIZED.

My home is a cozy, loving haven from my family. It reflects the things that are important to us.

My home is clean and organized.

My bills are paid, on time each and every month.

Billy and I are on a well planned functioning budget.

We have all of the worldly things we need.

I am at PEACE with my EMPLOYMENT.

I am at peace with my current working 'role'.

I am doing something that I enjoy.

I am able to provide for my family.

I am doing all that is necessary to improve my family's quality of life.

I am a LOVING FRIEND/WIFE, and MOTHER.

Oliver gets the best of my attention.

I am an active listener. I give my love and attention freely.

I have a fun, open, and honest relationship with my husband.

I let my husband know each day how much I love and appreciate him.