bathing suits...

that's right. bathing suits.

just the sound of that word and I cringe! Until last weekend I had no desire to be seen in a bathing suit until next summer. I was prepared to wear my capri pants...sit out of the water fun activities and everything. And then I found out that the relaxing trip to Laughlin to the SPA was actually a trip to Laughlin to the LAKE to ride jet skis and boats! AGH! Total mental break down on my part. I know it is silly. I know I am grown, everyone knows I just had a baby, no body really cares what I look like. It is not like I was going to roll up in a thong bikini just rockin my poor stretch marked chubby body! AGH! But I was terrified. I have met all of my husband's coworkers maybe two or three times ever. And I was pregnant all of those times so I did not want them seeing me in a bathing suit. PERIOD.

Obviously I got over it. I went and got a tasteful mom-suit. One piece.You know... sucks ya in. hides the tummy dimples. And I will admit it wasn't so bad. But man did it put my priorities in perspective. I am insane! I let the way I feel about my body control everything. I was seriously considering not even going on our trip because of a tiny little piece of water-wear. I am soooo glad that I didn't though because we had so much fun and I realized (again) that I have the greatest husband. He really thought I was beautiful all weekend long. Even though I didn't see myself that way...he saw it. And in the end I felt that way. ♥

I did take the oppurtuniy to take 'before' pics of myself in the bathing suit so that I could compare when I squeeze into one next year.  Here they are. view them if you dare.

Needless to say I have a new fire lit under my weight loss goals. So that is that. I don't have a lot to say about it because I haven't done much yet. Story of my life. But I gained three pounds just over the weekend. I forgot to log my weigh in so I will just let it be seen next Tuesday. I have conflicting feelings about that though. I know myself. I know what I like and I KNOW that if I don't let myself have these kinds of weekends where I eat and drink what I want than losing this weight is useless. Now I am just dealing with the struggle of getting back into everything. still. ugh. My goal is to have good productive news for you next week instead of "blegh I am tired and haven't been working out blegh."

Peace ♥ Love ♥ and Bathing Suits